****From day 56 of the blog project...
Hmm. As I worked on my insecurity lessons this week I received another insight that honestly should have occurred to me before today. One of the things God is using BM for is to help me be more secure. Don't worry, I hear your "Well duh" reverberating through the blogosphere :O) But seriously, He is using her to "mentor" me toward understanding why I am meant to live this life as a secure person. I've mentioned several times throughout the blog that this year as I pivot in a new direction, I want to feel more secure and today I can see how God is answering my prayer. I thought you might like to be reminded how far I have come in 56 days:
First, I started the journey. After submitting to what I thought was a crazy idea, God led me to realize that in part of the blog I would work toovercome my insecurity. And, He helped me to not be afraid of what lies ahead in the days to come in this project. He worked to show me that this would be the year I make huge changes in my life and convinced me I was a heiress. Then he took me to the bottom of my soul where I could discover where some pain resided that I haven't yet dealt with. Even later, he helped me overcome my insecurities associated with my blog and imaginary mentor. And by the end of January, God had me revved up and convincedthat this project really is worth pursuing.
That brings me to February, where I am secure in the project and have started to address remaining insecurity issues head on. The first week of study allowed me to realize that not only was my hidden insecurity causing me trouble in my earthly relationships, but with my relationship with God. I was inspired to see thousands who where just as willing as me to overcome their insecurity and I was heart broken by the pain that emerged from thoseblogger pages. The good news is that my studies helped me to realize that I was self-sabotaging myself. This was the catalyst I needed to grow in a new direction and these last few weeks I've been able to work at not being the source of my own insecurities. Success here led me to myfirst insight to my blog project.
Then I moved onward to last week where I see that I am truly transitioning toward security. It feels good and I am ready to keep learning. And look, I am receiving this new insight today, so I can't complain. Whew, I can't believe God has brought me this far in just 56 days! I can truly say that I am feeling more confident in Him and a new level of peace is truly inhabiting my soul. I think the success here has been through God leading me in a slow and steady approach. I am not trying to jump ahead, I am just taking it day by day. I'm not reading ahead in the book, I am just staying true to how BM is guiding me through it and I believe this method is working. Day by day, I'm just submitting to God as I take a little time to be inspired and work toward a deeper relationship with Him. Mano, what a journey so far.
Well, I won't go into all I have learned today in my insecurity studies, I'll save the main portion of that for tomorrow. But here is a little teaser that is serving as my mentor moment today:
That was then. This is now. Where on earth is all our insecurity coming from? And what make some people struggle with it so much more than others? We-re going to sit down in the dirt for a little while and dig down deep until we discover some roots. IF you've dealt with insecurity much of your life like I have, you've surely wondered where you picked it up for if you managed to come our to the womb with it like a giant invisible birth mark.
Intrigued? Me too, can't wait to see what God teaches me this week. You can have success too you know, all you have to do is just admit you can't do it alone and God will help you just like He is helping me.
Christ has liberated us into freedom. Therefore, stand firm and don't submit again to the yoke of slavery. Galatians- 5:1
Song of the Day: Alive Again by Matt Maher
